July 2, 2009
oh, really??
One of the transporters came in, looked at me and said, “Hi, Doctor.” Me being confused looked around and realized he was talking to me. I said, “I’m sorry, I’m not a doctor.” Considering, it was a joke, it just caught me off guard! And then he said, “I can see the future.” 
It’s not the first time people have called me doctor. It just really takes me by surprise when I do hear it. It’s sweet.
Little moments like these makes me happy, considering I haven’t been feeling very happy. Rather, I’m despondent, which can be attributed to several factors but all those things will pass.
And I love my time in the hospital. I like watching people around me. I especially like seeing people smile, and I especially love smiling at patients and making them feel less lonely/scared. I guess, I am a lonely person myself and can relate to patients on that level…so I know a warm smile can really change one’s mood. And if I were a patient, I’d want warm people. A hospital is a scary place!
And you know, being in the hospital feels more like home. I love it so much.
Next rotation is a high possibility in L&D, which I don’t know how I feel about.
I recall that I didn’t want to deal with patients but I realize I do want to interact with them! How strange is that?
Anyway, I do know that in the future I hope to treat patients from disadvantaged backgrounds. I could careless for the rich because the rich have everything at their disposal, but because I am poor and because I don’t have that access I know. And so I want to treat the people that are less fortunate.
Anyway those are my recent discoveries. I don’t know if you’ve noticed but I spend major holidays at the hospitals and I think that is evident that I could careless how I feel so as I can comfort those that need it more (even if I’m just a nobody).
And yes, I’ll be at the hospital tomorrow and Saturday.
